From [[Clear, James - 3-2-1 Newsletter - 2024-07-18]]:
>Is the situation actually complicated or is it really quite straightforward, but you’re making it complicated because it requires a lot of courage to make the straightforward decision?
This feels timely. A couple nights ago, I was journaling through a big decision I need to make, and I realized I know exactly what I need to do; I’m perfectly clear on what’s holding me back. But I’m still not prepared to move forward.
And I justify that to myself by saying that things are more complicated than just considering what’s best for me.
But that’s not really true.
It isn’t that it’s complicated; it’s that it requires me being brave / honest / open and would require me advocating for *myself **first***, and I just… kinda don’t want to. I don’t want to cause conflict or be uncomfortable.
And I think that’s okay; I don’t think I need to force myself into conversations that I don’t feel totally ready to have. But I think that has to be a conscious decision — one I’m being honest with myself about — rather than just hand-waving the whole thing away as being “too complicated”.
It isn’t complicated, I just don’t feel ready.